I dont think I enjoyed it back then at all. For a long time I felt like it was something I had to do, and it wasnt really a place where I could be free and experiment and enjoy." Then when she was 22, she suddenly realized that she liked it for the first time in her life. What is ironic is how both her greatest failure and achievement are related. In order to give birth it is necessary to engage in sexual intercourse. Something that brought her much shame, also brought her happiness for the first time. What she realized later on is that if you love someone enough sex doesnt have to be because you feel you have to, but instead something as beautiful as your love can be created. Gillian didnt like sleeping with guys, and sleeping with one gave her what she had been looking for her whole life, someone to love and return the gesture. She loves her daughter more then anything in this world, she didnt love the guy she slept with. Nevertheless, even though Gillian Anderson may be a celebrity role model, but she is still human. Human enough to make mistakes like everyone else in this world....
