On January 16, 1994, something happened that changed my life forever.    My parents and I were going to spend the day at the lake, because it was a beautiful day.  My dad was happier than ever, but then two thieves came inside the house to kill him.  It was a mistake.  The thieves thought he was someone else.  I was there when this happened, and I almost got killed too.  This has affected me in many ways.  I miss having a man loving me. My heart has become softer, and I feel responsible for my mom’s well being.     One year after his death, I began looking for the right man for me.  Since I have four other sisters, my dad was the only man in the house.  I wanted someone to love me the same way he loved me, someone protective, careful, polite, intelligent, and with a big heart.  Because of this, in every relationship that I have had, I have given all my heart.  I have not found the right man yet, and I really miss my dad’s love.     My philosophy teacher from high school told me once, that I have to give everything that I have inside of me but always being smart.  I have learned it is the best way to do everything, so my heart has become softer.  She told me that I had to forgive the two thieves if I wanted to be happy.  It was hard, but I did it.  I guess that if one day they ask me for some water, I will give them some, because God is the one who is going to judge them, not me.     My dad was a very strict man.  He loved my mom, so he wanted me to respect her and to do everything she said.  This is why since he passed away, I feel responsible for my mom’s well being.  I am the only one who lives with her.  She always wanted to take good care of me.  When I got pregnant at the age of 16, I knew my mom was not going to feel proud of me. If my dad were still alive, this would never have happened to me.  I took advantage of her and she knows it.  I have been trying to make it up to her, because I know she misses havi...