nd I was so grateful for their love but I still felt empty, still lonely. I wiped my eyes and cleared my thoughts for a moment and then my angel walked me outside. Then, naturally, the waterworks started again simultaneously and I dropped to the floor outside the lodge. He wrapped me in a hug and wouldn't let go as others passes us by. It was almost as though Adam were with he and I at that moment. Three good friends together again... but of all the people on retreat, it was my Earth Angel that refused to let me go. I assured him I was okay, but like Adam he was persistent, and walked me back to my room. That was another signifying moment of how much he meant to me. Sometimes I call him my brother only because he looks out for me like the dominant macho guy that he is. It's nice to have someone to relate to, but in this angel I find a person who is willing to trust me, and I him. I helped him shop for his homecoming outfit this year----and never has he looked so snazzy! But mostly, I love having someone around who will just pull up a chair if I'm sitting all alone, or use his demented sense of humor to cheer me up, or regale stories with movie quotes. It's comforting to have someone so close... We have gotten closer since then, which is strange because we don't go out nearly as much as Adam and I did, but it's worked out just the same. My angel in Heaven is Adam, and my angel on Earth is Matt. Without either of them I really don't know where I would be today. There isn't a day that passes by where I don't whisper their name at prayer each morning, and there isn't a day that my heart doesn't find them physically and spiritually....
