grieving about it so much that he was sort of going through a state of insanity due to the fiery ordeal he was gotten himself involved in. Paul mother had gone into a party and began to feel uncomfortable for her son after all it was her first born child and determined to go home. Both parents arrive to the house of vexing felling came over Paul's mother. Taking to the boys room upstairs to make sure her son was alright she felt sort of fear and strange. Entering to the dark room switching the light on she was surprise as she saw her son charging madly on the rocking horse. This made her think as if something weird was going on. "Malabar! Malabar! Bassett, Bassett, I know! It's Malabar!" (308) His mother sudden entrance had shocked Paul and knowing that she already knows his darkness secret. Falling of his horse due to such spontaneous action it is obvious that when Paul shouts out the names Malabar and Bassett it was his last effort to hide his shameful masturbation. Paul was a symbol of civilized man, whipping himself on in a nervous endless "mechanical Gallop," an "arrested prance," in chase of something which will destroy him if he ever catches it, and which he never really wanted anyway. He is the scientist, teacher, and theorist, who must always know about the outside world so that he can manipulate it to what he believes is his advantage. Paradoxically, such knowledge comes to him only in isolation, in withdrawal from the physical world, so that his intellect may operate upon it unimpeded. And such control of the world as he can gain is useless because he has lost the knowledge of what he wants, what he is.This is another aspect of the general problem treated by the story. A still more specific form of withdrawal and domination is suggested by the names of the horses on which Paul bets. Those names like the ones of the story are a terrible temptation to ingenuity. One should certainly be wary of them. Yet two of them seem related...
