ds agents. In the poem "As I Look Back" from Wilderness Jim writes "The horror of business/ The Problem of Money/ guilt/ do I deserve it?/ The Meeting/ Rid of Managers & agents/ After 4 yrs. I'm left w/a/ mind like a fuzzy hammer" Two songs Kurt wrote about apathy are "Breed" and "Smells Like Teen Spirit" The song "Stay Away" is an attack on conformist cliques. The song "School" tells about the Seattle Scene and how the bands seem to resemble high school cliques. In Kurts song "Come as You Are" he talks about contradictions on how we act versus how we think society thinks we should act. Kurt and Jim both thought drugs and alcohol worked just fine to help with issues like this. Jim said that he went through a period when he drank because there was a lot of pressure put on him and he couldn't cope. Jim also explained that he liked drinking because "It loosens people up and stimulates conversation."(No One Here Gets Out Alive by Danny Sugarman and Jerry Hopkins p.xiv) Jim also explained to Danny "Drinking made life tolerable; it numbed the pain and enabled him to unlock worlds the pain otherwise overrode, blocked, and blanketed. (The Doors The illustrated History p.341) Jim wrote in "As I Look Back" that "Being drunk is a good disguise./ I drink so I/ can talk to *censored*s./ This includes me."(Wilderness) Kurt also felt drugs made living life sometimes more bearable. In Kurts suicide note he says "I'm too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasm I once had as a child" Deep down Kurt knew drugs were bad. After his daughter was born he told a reporter "I can't tell you how much my attitude has changed since we've got Frances. I don't want my daughter growing up with people telling her that her parents were junkies."(www.downer.com quotes) He also said that "Drugs are a waste of time. They destroy your memory and your self-respect and everything that goes along with with[sic] your self esteem."(www.downer.com ...
