btains his first Schopenhauer text in 1865. FN is a dedicated student, his discle-ship continues as he praises RW and eventually befriends him. He never fully disrespects the clear vanity and lack of strength that RW exhibits in his attempt to re-gain the lime-light with the Beyreuth festivals, even though he is suspicious of his hero. The camel bears the burden, till the summer of 1876-- "I said farewell to Wagner in my heart."(Nietzsche Contra Wagner, Kaufman p 675), and then he releases Human, All Too Human, in which we see his first public and published revolt against RW. He is now in his lion phase. At the release of Parsifal by RW in 1882, FN reports himself as having become sick and disgusted, for he had seen one like himself abandon the journey. After seeing the premiere, he says, "..I trembled; not long after, I was sick, more than sick, namely, weary - weary from the inevitable disappointment about everything that is left to us modern men for enthusiasm, about the universally wasted energy, work, hope, youth, love-weary from nausea at the whole idealistic lie and pampering of the conscience, which had here triumphed once again over one of the bravest"(Nietzsche Contra Wagner, Kaufman p. 676). And it was in the winter between 1882 and 83 that FN attempted the relationship with Lou Salome, a woman he had become amorous of, and who denied his marriage proposal. The deep depression of the broken-hearted and the grief of seeing the downfall of his hero are the last days of his dependence on worldly matters. It is the start of his child phase. His most memorable works all came after this.The depravity and suffering of the artist has always seemed to magnify the art from within. This last attempt with a woman can be seen in both men's lives as the entrance into their child-phase. Beethoven's questioning of faith begins to appear in his music, and Nietzsche's most distinctly anti-Christian (i.e. The AntiChrist) are written. For Beet...
