t God was inevitably in charge of my life, but also that life was intended to be a mystery and we were not supposed to know everything. There was a long period of time during my senior year of high school when each morning I awoke to the question of What will today be like? Who will I talk to, who will I sit next to, who will I associate with? This was a particularly difficult time for me. For years I had the same close group of friends, but after our junior year a lot of things changed. They all became very involved with smoking weed, drinking alcohol and partying a lot. They even skipped class and left school on a daily basis. To me, this was unacceptable and I knew that it was not part of my character. Instead of going along with the crowd, I risked my friendship with all of them. It was hard at first, to realize that I now had no real close friends. Granted, I did have friends, but they were more or less acquaintances, they werent the friends I had hung out with on a daily basis for years. I felt very alone, and it really bothered me. I got depressed easily and on a daily basis. Often I would sit in my classes and wonder why I had become such a loser. Deep down I knew that I really wasnt a loser that I was infact very strong for staying true to myself. I felt very out of place almost all the time. I didnt go to the cafeteria for lunch because I didnt fit in at any of the lunch tables. Instead I would go to the senior lounge and work on my homework or write letters to my cousin. I dreaded doing the traditional senior things, like the senior class picture or senior skip day, even prom. They meant feeling very out of place. At the senior class picture I ended up sitting with acquaintances, for senior skip day I just hung out at home and rested. For prom however, things were a bit different. By then I had found a really good group of friends and I really enjoyed myself. Prom night was one of the best memories I have of high school, I ha...
