athe, I began to shake all over and am asked to stay still. I tell mama I didn't want to do this, please mama I say, she replies it will all be over in a minute. I lay there knowing what's going on and cry loudly. What is said to be six minutes seems a lifetime. Then I'm sent to a recovery room for an hour. Everyone seemed so relieved but not me I'm longing for what I have just let go. I go home and still remember the sounds of the machine,the cold table, and every thought. Not until a couple days later did it really seem to hit. I began to go into a deep depression and still blame my parents. I always think about on may 15th I would be having a baby. I'm young but still know the feeling of heartache. I cry out all the time. I have nightmares that are awful and wake up screaming. I have flashbacks all the time. And sometimes I dream of what the baby would have been like and think of the fun things we would have been able to do together. The crazy thing is sometimes I still imagine the baby being there and feel something that is almost like a baby kicking in my stomach. I truly regret this and only wish I could take it back. The baby is in my every thought. I would love to talk to people who have had one or are thinking of it so email me at girlchick123@aol.com. Thanks, AmandaAs I read her story I began to realize how absolutely horrifying this whole experience must be. This girl is only one year older then I am. This letter hits really close to home for me. One year ago this summer one of my closest friends had an abortion. The situation was not that much like Amandas. My friend tried very hard not to tell her parents and was actually thinking of running away from home. One night she called me ,frantic, trying to figure out what she was going to do. She told me how she could go to Kentucky and get an abortion without parental consent. She had a ride arranged with some guys she met a while back and said she would be back by the f...
