h made this touch different from any touch either of us hadever known. And he did not resist, as he usually did, but lay where Ihad pulled him, against my chest. And I realized that my heart was beating in an awful way and that Joey was trembling against me and the light in the room was very bright and hot. I started to move and tomake some kind of joke but Joey mumbled something and I put my head down to hear. Joey raised his head as I lowered mine and we kissed, asit were, by accident.(Giovanni's room Pp. 13)He goes on to explain how Joey and him slept together that night, how it made him feel, how frightened he really was. He also expresses to us the sham that it made he feel about his manhood. This would be one of the most rooted problem of his past that would hunt his future. And it was not like he could tell his father, for David's father was a man who had images of what manhood should be, especially for his son. David had no one to help him confront this issue. This was an issue he had to deal with all by himself. The hatred the fear and the reluctance all pushed him into a callous way of dealing with love. He suppressed this issue so much in his subconscious mind that it began to illustrate itself in his decision he makes in the present. David goes on to explain to us the relationship he had with his father. And how it too was a determining factor for the person that he became. He never was close with his father, because his father had a stereotypical of men and their emotions. And so even when David gets hurt in an accident (pg. 38) his father doesn't want him to cry. He wants him to be a man, a manly man. It got to the point that David knew how to manipulate his father into believing he understood his emotions without necessarily knowing anything. David wants to stand up for himself and be a man like his father says, but he also knows he needs assistance even though he doesn't want to admit it. And so it carrie...
