s out our protagonist into one of the few if any concrete decision that he makes in his life and this is when he moves to France. In Paris, he meets up with an old semi-sort-of friend Jacques and he meets up with a woman who would later become his fiance. It is then that he then meets with a new friend, a man named Giovanni. David and Giovanni connected instantly. And David would soon try to now explore that feeling of love once again. Even though he was engaged to Hella, she had gone to Spain and this gave him a reason to justify his relationship with Giovanni. His relationship flourished and bloomed with Giovanni. Yet he never really recognized it. He still felt that it was somehow wrong for him to love Giovanni. He even says: "The beast which Giovanni awakened in me would never go to sleep again; but one day I would not be with Giovanni anymore." (Pg. 111) David felt that Giovanni had risen a fear and intimidation in him that was rooted in his past, and this made him hate Giovanni as much as he loved him. David's past reflects all his decisions throughout his present. David is very indecisive simply because what had happened to him with Joey and he was unable to speak to anybody about it. He affects peoples' lives without necessarily knowing that he is affecting it. David wants to be a man so much, yet he cannot seem to break the need for assistance from his father. Even though he was appearing to be free. Then one day David gets a letter from both Hella and his father. His father was beginning to get suspicious of what David was doing in Paris. He wanted David to come home. In Hella's letter, Hella tells him that she loves Spain but she wants to come home to Paris. This is when David once again makes a very rash decision based upon what he thinks to be true versus what he knows to be true. He decides to leave Giovanni even though he knows he does not want to stay with Hella. All the decisions he made that were n...
