first if she didnt want to talk i would understand more than you can fathom, second i 100% believed you Grandpapi1: i have so much to say to her Cool H11: i imagine you do Grandpapi1: this has been the worst and yet most awakening weekend of my life Cool H11: i mean i guess that is a good thing...i'm not quite sure what to say Grandpapi1: you dont have to say anything... although i kind of actually have some things to say to you too, believe it or not Grandpapi1: weird Grandpapi1: i know Cool H11: i'm hear... Cool H11: i'm here... Grandpapi1: would that be you are there and you are listening Cool H11: yes Grandpapi1: ok... Grandpapi1: this might take a sec to type Cool H11: got it Grandpapi1: i realize at this point that you probably dont, and definitely shouldnt believe anything i say/type... but it isnt just michelle who i utterly disappointed in this situation... i feel like, and on some levels know, that everyone thinks that i have been completely dishonest about every single thing i have done or said that has been meaningful in a positive way... its like with michelle, she believes that i didnt meant anything i said to her... or i feel like with you its almost like when we were having such a good time dancing that i wasnt being me or something... and that isnt true at all, i just feel really really lost right now, i dont know whats going on, i mean i know that i havent dealt with things that i should have, i put them aside (i.e mike dying) for later because too much other *censored* is oging on right now... Grandpapi1: ok i got more but it was too long to put in Grandpapi1: i should have been more up front with how i had been feeling to her, not about michelle but in general... Cool H11: well.... Grandpapi1: its probably not that important after the fact Cool H11: It is hard for me to respond to what you say because you completely broke my best friend's heart...but, I will try to not have too much of a bi...
