ing. When characterizing my identity I dont want pretty to be the first word that pops into peoples minds. Pretty says: dull and uninteresting. People in school know me, not because I score winning points in basketball games, or come in first in swim meets. People know me because I am supposedly good-looking. Sometimes I feel like I dont have an identity aside from the way I look, and my definition of identify doesnt include appearance. I sometimes list the things that identify me. My strongest features are my different hair and my clear skin. People have often told me that I should be a hand model or go into commmercialism because I have a unique smile These compliments put a temporary smile on my face, but having clear skin does not make me feel good about myself. Having clear skin does not give me the confidence and self-assurance I need to be happy and accomplish my goals. But according to the majority of my friends and family:my looks are going to get me the farthest So I guess in a way my looks are my identity.The problem with characterizations and first impressions is that I dont give an accurate perseption of the real me. I often seem ditsy and spacy, and sometimes I act in a way that doesnt portray the real me, and that frustrates me beyond words. My friends call me bubbly, silly, and funny trying to think of a way to say ditsy that wont hurt my feelings, and these traits arent neccisarily bad. Atleast I have characteristics that make others happy and cheerful when they are around me. Maybe my identity is best summed up as spacy, ditsy, and distracted. Eventhough my grades arent wonderful, and I dont ride a horse six days of the week, atleast I have the amazing ability to understand everyones pain. A year ago this sentiment was what kept me confident, but lately I have been struggling to believe my friends even like me. Somewhere between junior and senior year I have started analyzing my personality and trying to figure out wh...
